ok here's for my long post
actually there's nothing much since like everything is sort of solved but i'll still post anyway firstly i would like to apologise to reuben &james cos like i'm sorry you guys looked forward to worship so much than we din't have it la... ya and also i'm so sorry for calling you guys immature T.T
ok now i'm sorry if this next part will like arise anger in people la.. but i guess i just have this feeling to post it...
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ok i have to admit la, i don't get angry but i get irritated
and on sun i was really irritated at rueben and james
but now i'm ok liao la.. just saying at that time one
ok i was irritated firstly cos during lunch it was wayy awkward la
and like the two of you guys were whispering over there and stuff and glancing at noah
which i felt was very bad la... and like when noah asked you what? you're just ignore him....
i mean me and sarah were whispering... but we were whispering about CUTE GUYS, i dun think you want to know that do you...
so anw that i felt was ok but abit... but like after that you're just decide to leave and like you asked us la... but we couldn't exactly say no wat.. i mean if we said STAY than you're would but would be whispering and just sitting there which will be even weirder la.. so you're left first then we gather to talk, you want to worship we don't want to
ok its not that we don't want to la.. its just that after that weird lunch no one was really like in the mood for worship and like i just felt that if you heart wasn't in worship (which is actually about your heart) than like wats the point, so i say we talk first and i could tell you guys were a bit angry liao la... but i really didn't know what to do
so after that we talked and you guys were like forcing stuff out of josh... i mean this is a TALK, people talk what they want to talk... you just can't force stuff out la.. then after that naturally he defended and you' started having that pillow fight
and like while you guys were interrogating josh and having the fight
the girls were feeling very left out and out of place
so we sit at the wall there and jus do nothing than we just say out that you guys were childish la.. cause we were like abit irritated that we were called to stay back for a serious talk and there you were playing with the pillows and doing obscene stuff. so after tat the guys all settle down and started to talk l
well everyone except the two of you, james and reuben and that was what really got to me la.. i mean you're two were like the ones who started this talk and when we actually started to talk you're just sit at the corners and emo -.-
than after that when i ask you why you just say you don't feel like talking... so anyway we talked and i actually discovered alot about bird, josh and noah la... than the two of you just leave early like sulkily too like..........................................................
then after that reuben say you wanna leave the group cos nothing is going to go back to normal
without you even knowing that the talk had already been talked out and like things were going to get better la... that's about all for sun but now everything for me is ok, as in i'm not irritated with the guys anymore la.... just that i find reuben sometimes a teeny weeny bit hypocritical (sorry :x)
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actually as i thought more about the things that WAS going on right
i realised that it was good you know
i mean if the thing hadn't cropped up like we wouldn't have known wat was going on in the other people's lifes la.. in a way its all about unity
like unity as in as a group
like we really become one la.. i just feel like thats the expectation God has for us la... i mean unity was what caused this whole thing and unity will put it back together again yea?
ok my point is that we from now on just really be open with how we feel about each other
i mean how do you expect that person to change if they don't even know HOW to change
so just be open if you're comfortable with it, if you're not then leave it for another day. just keep in mind that if you keep it, the other person may not know that what he/she is doing is actually bothering you so he'she will just keep doing it la. whatever it is
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i also feel that this group doesn't need to have a leader or you don't need to have someone to tell you to do that thing then you can do it
what makes tha group A GROUP is the group itself la
and like not whoever who calls the shots
that's just one person
and what i told sarah was like if you guys wanna really solve whatever problem that comes our way in future or now right we have to really work as one la
i mean you can't depend on one person picking out all the rotten apples from the batch, its possible but its very tiring for that one person and like its always better for everyone if everyone were to help out la
anyway i just want to say that
if you believe that its over it will be over; and just stop killing brain cells thinking and stressing yourself out over this cause its OVER, we've come out victorious(:
and i just wanna say that we'll always be here for anyone who needs help
plus: heres one reason not to be emo(:
But now, thus says the LORD, who created you, O Jacob,And He who formed you, O Israel:
“ Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;You are Mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
For I am the LORD your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I gave Egypt for your ransom, Ethiopia and Seba in your place.
Since you were precious in My sight,
You have been honored, And I have loved you;
Therefore I will give men for you,
And people for your life.
Isaiah 43:1-4
P.S if you leave, i will leave with you &i'm serious