I've found a friend who died for me

:(....

How long more must it last?
How long more must i wait?
What more must i do so that it can be so??

I've given every bit of me to tell you all i am sorry.
I am sorry i acted big shot.

I am sorry i made suans that could have hurt you all.
I am sorry for the ass and immature piece of shit i was.

No longer i am like that,
But i've done nothing that is honourable or things that any of you should be proud of..
James, you of all people should understand what happened and why.
Zephan, i'm really sorry for last year's drama everything you and i said to each other.
Joshuah lim... thanks for being the friend who was always there to support me.
I remember how you wanted to get punched also because i was your friend.
I really thank you.
But sometimes... i need to settle things on my own.
My heart can never be pure or perfect but i am doing my best.
Becky, you cute little hamster... thanks.
Karyne, your never ending concern has touched my heart in every way.
Noah, thank you for being a welcoming host and your spirit of cheerfulness
Samuel, same as noah.
Hillary, i may not know you well but i think one way or another i apologize to all of you as SFH.
Ian, same as hillary. I'm sorry that you feel left out in the group and so. I truly am. because SFH is not a group for only 17 people. but the world can join us. and its true.
Songjie, thank you for teaching me things through ur experiences. i'm sure you will continue to impact ppl.
Van, you may not be in singapore but i miss you and we all do. Thanks for your never ending concern and little girl - likeness.
Bird, thanks for being so sweet.
Joy, you and i may have had problems, but we both know our friendship will not be destroyed just like tat. and thanks for being sweet alot of times too.
Marcus, same as noah.
Vicky, sports girl, i want to play with you someday. anyway besides that point just wanted to say thanks for being there for me too.
Sarah...sorry. all of you i want to say i am sorry. Sarah, as much as you don't want me to talk to you or say this... i really really regret alot alot of things i did to you. I am so super sorry. I spent nights crying, reading all the cards you ever gave me. i will go to school insetad of taking out a pen. i stare at the highlighter u gave me for christmas a few years back. But i know the hurts and things i have done to you cannot be compared to me... how many times i felt lousy and told you that you shouldn't like me and the trust i broke. I've tried my best to make it up.. and will continue to.. and i really do hope you will forgive me. but if you cant then i dun blame you.
Darryl low, you may not be in my cell but you are in my zone. and i was really angry at you too. I am so sorry...:( you won't even be reading this.. but no matter what i will not forget that we were freidns before. and i do hope we can be again. What happened today... if you guys dunno abt it. pls dun ask around. and those who know pls dun tell any one or even talk abt it to those who know.

All of you, i really love each one of you all very much. so ya... sorry.

random, but.
I Love You All :D
(too lazy to name out everyone. lols. but you get the idea :D)

HEY PEOPLE!!!!
i was wondering if we could go out be4 our training for lunch. i have a place that i think ur might like :)
erm meet at dhoby ghaut at 11.45?
then we will walk to that place together
PLS confirm ur attendance.
then we will go to church after that
SURPRISE FOOD!!

The PEACE Picture

isn't it cute? just that it's a little small

awww. lols

anyway have fun in your week at school

(i still have a pile of work waiting for me)

oh darn.

I wonder by my troth, what thou, and I

Did, till we lov'd? Were we not wean'd till then?

But suck'd on countrey pleasures, childishly?

Or snorted we in the seaven sleepers den?

T'was so; But this, all pleasures fancies bee.

If ever any beauty I did see,

Which I desir'd, and got, 'twas but a dreame of thee.

And now good morrow to our waking soules,

Which watch not one another out of feare;

For love, all love of other sights controules,

And makes one little roome, an every where.

Let sea-discoverers to new worlds have gone,

Let Maps to other, worlds on worlds have showne,

Let us possesse one world; each hath one, and is one.

My face in thine eye, thine in mine appeares,

And true plaine hearts doe in the faces rest,

Where can we finde two better hemispheares

Without sharpe North, without declining West?

What ever dyes, was not mixed equally;

If our two loves be one, or, thou and I

Love so alike, that none doe slacken, none can die.

There Are FIVE RANDOM things That I WISH Will HAppen To me

1. I WILl Own a Giant killer robot teddy bear

2.That someone will GivE me $10 For FREE

3. That It Will Start TO RAIN Pencils

4.That my school Will GIve OUt PSP!!!!!

5. NOTHING

Hey guys!
This blog is filled with all the towards the not so positive side leh!
Let's make this blog happening yeah?
remember what we said when we first created this blog?
Ben said its gonna die one day BUT I BEG TO DIFFER!

Post happy things!
Haha.
Bye.

James™

Forget guns,forget ammunition

Coz thats what's making it worst

Forget money ,forget cars

Coz that what's making the world go round

Forget fortress,forget land

Coz thats what's making it go on and on

Forget bombs, forget tanks

Coz thats what's causing the numbers to never stop

Forget tears, forget joy

Coz i used them all up

Forget planes,forget rockets

Coz we ran out of time

Forget science, forget math

Coz we abused it

Forget home,forget buildings

Coz we blew them all up

Forget nature

Coz we killed it

Forget friends, forget families

Coz we used them against each other

Forget about love

Coz we lost it.....

Forget about peace

Coz we lost love...

Forget me Coz I need peace.....

Poem about peace ENJOY hope not to what for you guys haha

THIS IS noT A emo POst

They looked at eachother, and saw heaven in the dephts of each other`s
lightened eyes
they stared at eachother for a moment, sighed feeling a pressing in
their hearts, and then closed their eyes
their eyes were drowning in a bitter sweet confusion, afraid to open
again.
They were beautiful, too beautiful, but incomplete
they had velvet dreams living in the limbo of fear and desire
they looked at eachother, and feared the worse
that they would trumble on madness, that they would fall hopelessly
in love...
their hands touched, felt the warmth, the human scent of roses
skin on skin, it was the beginning of something they could not
understand
they knew that if they let their bodies feel one another, they would
never be strong enough to walk away.
They were living under the fake lights, for ages
performing and playing characters, they almost forgot who they were
sometimes the people around them brought enough rejoicing
sometimes it was just too cold on the set, and inside of them
then their eyes met one another, and danced a crying tango
even when the two men did not understand their senses, defying them,
and winning...
The words their mouths wanted to say, were hurting
sufocated and emprisoned, like a cursed warrior after the war
they looked at eachother, then looked down
they were beautiful, too beautiful
their beauty was like a sharp knife cutting the veils in pieces, and
revealing the sun
the freezing cold would be finally over, if they let the sun touch
them whole
no masks, no fear, no shame.
The people around them knew it all along
it was meant to be pure and ravishing
it was meant to be the dawn of a new world
if they let their eyes dive into one another, a little bit closer
and wipe the tears from their eyes with the flowing feathers, and
their crying love
forsake the siege within...
The words their mouths wanted to say, were coming to life
that night had to be the night of forgiveness
for their useless hurt and wasted time
that moment had to be the beginning of forever...
when they reached out their hands, with no fear
and the two hearts collided, absorving the familiar matter, forming a
single one
the restrained sighs would be replaced by moans of endless pleasure
the clear words their mouths wanted to say all along, were now
released for the first time
"Gen melin! Gen melin!"
"I love you! I love you!"
Wiping away the tears from their faces, and breathing deeply
breathing eachother, no more hurt.
"Hush now don´t cry my angel!"
"Nelladell nîn."
"Angel of mine."

well since i haven't posted for so long
and becky's crazily asking for roses from everyone

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

Just wanna say that i Love you guys
superdooperulrtramegaimba Love you guys
(took me 10 secs to come up wif tat)
And yea hope we'll be TOGETHER
till the END!!!!!!
yea so that's about it
Keep the LOVE people!!
and stay COOOOLL
hahas :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Who would ever want to hear one's desperate cry,
Full of sadness,
Hopelessness,
Desperation.

Who would ever want to hear the dying screams of pain,
Brokenness,
Pain,
Left there without a heart to bleed.

For what can one do without a heart?
What can one do without a soul?

When all that bitterness of this world,
Can take everything from you

For what can we do without a living spirit?

Agony was never one of us,
Never part of us,
Not our kind.

It lied to us,
Now we must no longer be blind,
Because we knew what it would do what its done

For what can we do without a saviour?

hey peoplee.
just here to say that van has a point
i mean don't you find that we take longer than usual to like settle something
even somethign as simple as where to eat for lunch LOL
and yea i admit sometimes i'm the poop who get sidetrack too.
lols. so i guess next time just pay more respect to the person talking (:
YEA BABYES!
anyway just asking...
evoke isit this friday start prac or something? lols
why do i seem so enthu about evoke?

hey all... ok tis is no offence luhs.. just reminding u ppl only..
i find tat all of u should have like some respect for like the person who is like talking luhs.
like today.. at the foyer.. josh was like trying to tell u guys abt the evoke ur dreams thing..
dan like almost all of u were like side track.. luhs dan started to talk abt other stuff..

is like.. when one person talk ritexX.. the rest shld like listen and all. is like basic manners u all shld know.unless u tell me tat u don't know such things. so yea like one person talk the rest just listen .. and if like got any question and all.. ask later after like the person say wat he/ she wanna say. dan u ask..

or not is like.. when u talking.. dan someone ask one ques.. is like interupting the person.. dan like will nva finish saying and all.. hahas so yea..
just hope tat the next tyme it will not happen.. cause i was like irritated abt it. yea.

not scolding u ppl or wadeva.. just letting u ppl know.. cause it seems like it has always been like tat.. and like u all shld know or like can see tat is kinda diff to settle ppl down to like just listen to a person talk for like 15 mins or more.. yepps. (: