Only to find nothing but myself to cope.

Call, write, there I cried.

No one replied. 

Singing a song that was only to myself and no one else. 

Yet stuck in the middle of a crowd.

Millions were there.

But in my heart I felt no one cared. 

Father the Almighty, 

Why have You abandoned me?

Living a life of my own. 

There, so alone. 

Was I doing what is right? 

What did I do that was so wrong? 

Who can I trust,

When it seems all my friendships has begun to rust. 

Then, I opened my eyes,

Living a brand new life. 

A life of love, faith and hope. 

i can only take about two -peps now sooo sms yea

ANd ohh yea strictly no girls sry ><

not even becky

any way sms arr by this sun i guess

Nothing much to say...

I did ok for my exams i got a few cs and Bs and one A whoooooooooo

guess tats all i noe its nothing compare to vickys marks or sarahs marks or whoever but at least i tried right?

i tink i would just write one poem and then i would really really try not to write any...

I think i wrote it before but any way...

really super pathethic... and my class is so screwed up as long as u pass on 50 and above we all rejoice like as if we got 8 a1s or smth. 

my maths... i dun even wanna talk abt it... i studied the hardest for that but it was really really really difficult. only one guy pass in my class and his pass is not even a pass. it was 49.6 but they rounded it up.

i had 17/80 for paper 2 how pathethic is that... and geography i got 12/50 which is kinda expected despite the fact i studied till 2 because it was also really difficult. 12/50... thats 24 percent and thats almost a U grade... and u know what.... i am in the 11th in class -.- can u imagine..? 

chem.... i was one of the three people in my class to pass it... -.- and not like it was great either with a screwed up teacher around. 

my highest subject is 55 wth i dun even have a single subject with a B :( 

and the gangsters in my class all got As and they dun even study wth. some guy got 41/50 for physics -.- 

and i dunno i feel damn stupid its like study for what man it seems almost no difference. 

so everything else failed... dun bother to put up the marks... 

this post is dedicated to the sec 2s...

trust me... sec 3 life....is hell different. you don't even wanna go and talk abt the standards man. 

every year almost every sch all the sec 3 batches always do damn badly thats why i am telling u now. 

u may think wahhhhh sec 1 and 2 damn chicken man i think sec 3 the same.. whether u slack or u stay the same standard. yes even maintaining it won't work because you will need to put in so much more. 

by the time i woke up you can say it was too late. but i guess sec 3 year is the wake up call for loads of ppl. 

haiz i dun even know if i'm going to retain or go normal. but most likely promote but even then it sucks like shit man. ya sucks like shit. but whatever it is... praise God :) Good luck for 2009. coz 2008 has been the worst year of my life...yet its a good year haha. :)

can??

it would be nice if the gals could come but if u guys don want to its ok ^^

Whooooooooooo

 soo can it will be fun...

and the game would be COD4- Call Of Duty 4

a new game so that every one will have a fair start i guess ><

plss reply^^

cya

You know sometimes we sing songs and i;m sure many of you know the song " from the inside out " 

it goes " the art of losing myself in bringing You praise". 

I feel sometimes we sing songs we don't even mean. i know its been preached on saturday but i really wanna emphasize on this. 

We love God its true. I know alot of us do. 

But honestly, how many really love Him in actions. 

I'm putting this because its been a mistake i made alot of times. not because i'm trying to find fault with ppl. 

when we say we lose ourselves. do you calculate how much you are going to surrender to God? 

what in your head you go " alright i think 90% will do". but thats not God wants. He wants all of it. bad good whatever. it doesn't matter. it doesn't matter how out of tune you go. how many people think you are retarded. you know smth becky i really admire you sometimes. because alot of times i feel the same way as you but somehow i just dun wanna express it. 

and another thing also is letting God work through us and in us. the song also goes " consume me from the inside out" 

and that means to have God inside you and living through you. 

You know what reuben " you are totally retarded!!! " i got my whole class saying that to me everyday. you know what thats just not it. even my teachers say so. even my neighbourhood says so. but let them say what they want because i want to be the type of worship that goes " any time and anywhere " i'm not saying in cinemas u suddenly jump up and start singing lah -.- but you can always start in your heart because in the first place thats where worship starts. 

and if we can do that... i can promise you you will be starting a revolution. its like giving the signal to start a war. a war we know we are going to win. if we can do that and lose ourselves for God your entire character is changed to something else. 

sometimes in ministry we are wondering like " oh man why everybody crying and falling and everybody is like looking so touched by God but me " 

the truth is.. the only reason why you would feel that way is because you are focusing on the wrong thing... you are so focused on getting touched by God in that certain way you want it. so focused on falling down to look like as if u got the biggest touch of all by God that you forgot to focus on worshipping God. Take note people... in my deeper level of ministry... and its not just deeper. In fact, its my deepest. In my deliverance... i did not even scream... i did not vomit.. i did not even cry... i did nth but stand there and that moment itself i was changed. sounds like nothing. but inside its completely something else. thats the ministry you should be desiring and thats the ministry you must not focus on too much but worshipping God first. 

yup this is all i wanna say. hope its not too chim ><