I've found a friend who died for me

Hey Guys....

Erm i don't know if you guys notice but can't you guys see that we don't care for each other that much as we used to....i don't really know if i am going in to hard but this has been on my mind since the start of mission....i juz want to say that can't you guys see that some of us in our group is hurting really bad and some of us in our group in really quiet.....i don't know if you guys notice or not but some of us in this GROUp aren't really talking with each other maybe its some history but i really hate to say this but i got to.... history is like a song it repeats its self unless some one changes the song...words are like weapons they are also like medicine its how you use them not how many times you used them... look i don want you guys to take this lightly and also i don't want you guys to overreact ...all i want is that we be like brothers and sisters sure we have our defects like i sometimes cannot control my emotions... but lets look at the bright side...like vicky and sarah... i mean they are quiet but they know whats right and whats wrong ... and like sam he knows how to make everyone laugh once we are down.... Guys why do you think we made it THIS FAR ,sure we had some problems with gender if i may have been soo blind during church camp and forgot that girls need their space i am sorry...I don't care if i get sucky comments form school because of you guys...I am a soldier of God and i shall not fall,as long as i love God i will stand.....I juz think that maybe we can really step out of our comfort zone and help the world....lets HElp each other up.... and those people in our group who know that you are doing something wrong i beg that you will stop coz a soldier must have his or her discipline..... don't know if this is too long but hey ^^

stay happy ^^

eh guys........can u pls be more responsible? i asked a question. i asked who can make it before the mission trip. i came back FIVE days later... only 2 ppl respond. if u can make it dun expect me to assume u can make it. can u all stop doing things so last minute. wednesday night then come and post up. and then all the smses come in. i also wanna have gala night but i think u guys are really irresponsible. and u all never tell me i asssume u can't make it and i have church stuff tmw. seriously... most of u are going sec 3s. dun even have p6 next year. u all find me bossy asnd whatever i dun care ok? i really never said alot for quite long. so... i'm gonna fix another date and i want an answer.... i mean it. everyone. i dun care if u got issues with me or a score to settle. ur responsibility to answer comes first before ur emotions. the date is next thursday. u have 1 week. and anyway i heard gala night u need to have a non christian in the band. so ya. its another reason why i cancelled the meeting.

heres a reminder for those who know, and news for those who dont know
tml is the twenty seventh which is the 27
so we'll be meeting in church i think, at around 2-3?
to dis cuss and maybe even rehearse for GALA night
all are involved, all are required to come
if you can't make it then is ok la.
but if you can just come. really.
a summary of the meeting will be posted up here by the wonderful me,
to let those who didn't come know what is going on
so yea. i guess thats about all.
oh and i think it may end 5 plus 6 like that
yea. but you guys can leave early if you really really need to.
aiyahh. just come if you have nothing important to do xD
and if you cant come pls let reuben know.
yea... so ok. bye.
hahahah

love, your wonderful becky

I got so much to say that i have to break it up to a number of posts i think.

The first day we went we were already so united and joyful. You could really sense the spirit of excellence and unity.

I learnt the reason why unity can be developed so fast is not because we spend more time but its because we all have the same goal.

We went to a hair salon to wash our hair HAHAHAHA eh shiok leh guys. now i know why woman hair so precious.

So we took a bus from pontainak to sintang. by right suppose to be 10 hours.

but the bus broke down.

And all of places it broke down beside a CEMETRY!!!

Then very funny coz we all go do our business near the cemetry graves lol.

The bus was delayed for about 5 hours. so we reached there late.

but the food WAH SHIOK MAN!!!

Trust me aceh very boring one coz down there can't do much.

Then every meal we eat we always say shiok but we always say eat as much as you can coz the next meal might be not nice.

Guess what -.- EVERY MEAL NICE HAHAHA.

So we broke up into teams. One went to simetau or however u spell it. and one to marakai again how ever u spell it.

It was super funny cause both teams somehow got delayed.

The trip to marakai was supposed to be 4 hours. end up quite a few trucks were stuck in the mud. so we left at 3. and reach at 9 -.- by the time reach there time to sleep le.

We went 2 days travelling but it was really fun.

For the simetau team, during their trip there was a flood until waist deep! so no choice but got to carry motorcycle.

So we took turns to share testimonies and preach.

Every message and testimony was connected.. and God-given and was very very powerful :)

But at marakai there was a spirit of pride, witchcraft. so we noticed whenever people wanted healing many will go up.

So we had to go different parts of marakai. On the second day alot of miracles took place.

I was extremely tired that day. and i felt like shit lah. but when i prayed i remembered that when u pray for someone its never about you but always praying for the holy spirit to heal. so this particular old man came to be half blind and lame.

So i prayed for him in spirit because he couldn't understand me mah and when i prayed finish he opened his eyes and he suddenly looked very happy and gave me alot of thumbs up. Praise the lord coz he was healed! but he wasn't the only one haha. alot of people over there couldn't work all had stomach problems.

k i say the second post for tomorrow :)

hey all
today got back PSLE results hor
so congratilations to t hose who did well
hahahaha. i supposed you earned it
and for those who didn't do as well as they hoped
don't be too sad or disouraged yea
maybe it just wasn't your day when you were taking your exam
....
so dun lose hope if you didn't do as wll as you wanted
cos you can always work hard and do much better in sec sch (:
like my teacher used to say,
its not about which school or class you're from, its about the standard you show.
she was one who did quite badly for PSLE
and like went to a very very lousy JC.
like one in the lowest standards one.
then all her friends like looked down on her and stuff
but she didn't gave up and strived on,
and now, she's working as a teacher which is actually quite a good job.
lols.
so yea. always remember,
its not about which school or class you're from, its about the standard you show.
so don't be too discouraged yes if you didn't do that well.
lols. take care xD
love, becky who rocks.

Hi guys Chrismas is coming!!!And that means presents!!!So wat do you peeps want???smth cheap please i dunno wat to buy!! this things take time so i think i will take 1 month in advance to shop 4 it!!! Or maybe i should just bake smting??Anyway do you peeps know wat mothers like?.........i tink i just wasting blog space typing crap:)(:lol kk damn H/GH

yipee i got the 400th post lol. anyway. the guys if u dun like the dance idea then the girls can do alone bah :) we will watch and support them then :). see ya guys on monday.

hi again :) ok when the few of us come back on 24th can we discuss the stuff on 27th? which also includes practice. coz we dun have alot of time and i really need u all to tell me. i think wednesday alot of ppl cannot make it so how abt thursday? oh anyway barny is going to be our bassist so ya he waiting for u all to get the date also. anyway i decided we practice 303 bah. i will bring my ipod and stuff and hopefully we can plug it into the amp and let u all hear the songs and decide. :) k see ya guys pls keep 27th free. especially musicians. songjie... barny... zephan...sarah...karyne and myself. :) 27th hor pls remember.

HEY PEOPLE!!!
hello all!! everyone in SFH!
someone suggested a christmas party. ok fine that person is james. well most of u noe that there is this my hope thing going on in our church. for those of u who dunno. it is an evangelical gathering. so like we invite our non- believing friends n we sow seeds into their lives!! yes! erm we can use the video that the church gives. but we might wanna come up with the program ourselves. :)
Venue: James's house. since he is rich. haha no la. he offered to be the host.
Date: Undecided
Time: Undecided

This will be an meaningful event so we hope that all of u will consider this plan and involve urselves:)

OOH YEAH!! ok i have this like super cool idea. ok i was thinking like the gala night can have a duet!! then ian and joy will sing. then like sarah, eliz, me, vicky, n some other people can do like a ball dance or waltz. it will be super nice!!!! the spot light on them n the dancers. suggested song: can i have this dance. Van if we are doing a hip hop song. u shall be our hip hop dancer!! haha

ALRIGHT PPL. gala night is already announced lol. so we probably kinda the first few to know. thats such great news!

Anyway... thats bullshit LOL. hmmm... lets seee... ok here are the songs u guys have given me so far k? i only take the nicer song of those who posted more than one. like i said. one to every person.

The songs are :

1. Love story - Taylor swift ( becky)

2. 7 things - Miley Cyrus ( Joy)

3. Accidentally in love - counting crows ( joshuah lim en)

4. The things you do - OH SHIT ITS A OLD SONG AND I FORGOT THE SINGER T.T ( zephan)

5. How 6 songs collide - Norwegian recycling ( karyne )..... i so doubt we can play this...

6. Change - Taylor Swift ( ian) DUDE WHATS WITH U GUYS AND TAYLOR SWIFT MAN.

7. Today is the day - Lincoln Brewster ( song jie)

8. Sing (your love) - hillsong ( me..)

9. She will be loved - maroon 5 ( sam)

ok guys.. we got 9 songs... WE NEED ONE MORE. and i need the song by monday... otherwise i'm just gonna take the extra songs ppl posted alright? deal. ok. ok anyway i will be back on the 24th which is a monday. I was kinda thinking we meet up during the weekdays and discuss it. and after that practice. coz weekends i doubt we can. coz of dialect upstairs. and Good news guys.... L4 IS OUR PRACTICE ROOM! but we see how first ya? later we screw up smth we're dead. i still deciding between 303 and l4. i will fix a day. every week we will come down once to practice. and pls dun tell me u not free coz our group so big everyday someone confirm not free one. so pls try to make it. must have valid reason if u can't. dun forget if u dun come we dun have any 1 to replace u. especially musicians. will discuss with u all when i get back. Is the 26th a good day to practice? meaning every wednesday. pls tell me hor :)

hey i havent been posting for quite long
and i got a few stuff to say
and
even though i'm speaking at this tone
DOESN'T MEAN I'M SAD OR ANYTING!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ok so wherer shall i start?
kkk
first off
i'm goin cambodia on sun lol
so soz vann can't celebrate
if i come back on time at wed
then maybe can wish lol
yea and i shan't be bhb(btw wat is bhb?)
i shall be polite:OOOO

PLEASE MISS ME!
:DDDDDDDDDDD

ok then er there's one book that i TINK its cool
its called "left behind"
i tink sum shud noe liao
but its a super cool book
and for those hu kinda want to noe abt how the world is gonna be DONE-D
then u can go read tat for clearer understanding
ya i dun noe if its true..but its written by christians and all
but anyway ITS MY OPINION
and yea wat else?

oh yea
i support karyne's suggestion
though if u need me to choose a song
i tink ermm.....-pretends to tink real hard-
ok -really thinks hard now-
"she will be loved/marron 5"???
if ur dun like then can choose this
"just the girl/click 5"lawl
sry this days nvr hear new song
and download my usual much lol
ok tat's it
and LEFT BEHIND ROCKS!!!
SO DOES SFH!!!!!1
yea everyone
continue to rock
peacey~

Hi,van's com cannot work so she ask me to tell u, this sun wan go watch movie??celebrate her b'day early cos some going mission trip on actual day.tell me by this sat on blog!thx

When I look at the world.

I see a expression.

Now how great is the world?

Now where will I go?

Guns with no bullets.

Love with no pain

Where did the world go?

Where did I go?

War with no blood

Money with no greed

Where did the world go?

how far did we go?

Tried to run but I can't.

So I try to be like you.

Try to feel it like you do.

but its no use I can't see what you see.

Can't wait any longer.

Can't wait till I am stronger.

We need it now.

Peace On Earth

I Don't Know What Weapons Will Be Used In WWIII But I Know WWIV Will Be Fought With Sticks And Stones

-Albert Einstein

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pB1kXDVRHaY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t9-CS2v8wcc

YOU GUYS GOTTA WATCH THIS MAN. HE IS DAMN GOOD. LISTEN ESPEIALLY TO ALADDIN AND HOW HE CHANGE HIS VOICE OMG ITS LIKE HE SINGING TWO PPL LAH T.T.

and if u think its fake his not hahaha i went to look him up. he has his real live concerts XD.

Hey people!
yeah just wanna say something. ya. wad happen to our group? like wad happen to the spirit and fire of our group. we seem so split up and back into our individual groups again. our spirit to worship and pray together. i mean... i dunno. i have just got this feeling. but could we try to make it an attempt, maybe for a time where we can pray and just worship together as a group. i noe individually ur have cells. probably ur are closer to ur cells than this group. but since most of us had this vision, that god had a plan for us, lets do it. I may not noe becos i am not exactly from YA. but as reuben and ian said i am not from YA haha but still... we can do over msn. conference call. skype. meeting up anytime of the week, but like making it regular. weekly. i noe most of us have problems as our parents might not allow us but could we make a little accommodation? I will try too. so yeah thats all i gotta say... sry.
have a blessed hol:)
Kar.

Blood on my hands,

The sweet rainbow smiling up at my face.

The glass slicing off the flesh of dust.

Coffee on my shirt.

Apple pie so delicious,

The sun crossing the horizon.

Honey stars, yellow like the moon.

Roses so green.

Misplaced heart.

What happen to one post a day???

i tot this blog suppose to have one post a day??

anyway I SHALL HELP

Hummmm what shall i say???

arr let me think.....still thinking.........thinking,give me a break............. thinking!!!!

Ohh yea

MIssion trip will be fun i hope soo pray for safety i guess and i think we all need to slack a little

except for sam he slacks too much yea tats it i guess...

wanna go cycling this sun??

it will be fun

soo reply yea?

k guys... this is really quite impt..

for gala night becky josh and zeph will be in charge. I will be band leader.

but otherwise they got more authority than me.

Anyway, for gala night.... the first 10 persons who tag their songs we shall create a playlist with that.

Each person only allowed to tag one song.

The reason why i dun let the whole group put in their songs coz it will be troublesome and sure got alot of problem later.

So we will create a playlist of 10 songs which is already alot and then choose 3 songs. 1 song will be for audition.

2nd for main.

3rd is just in case they one us to play one more song if we are luckily that good. But i have confidence LOL.

i'm saying this for zeph coz he was suppose to post up AHEM.

anyway... please bear in mind before you tag what song u are choosing and think of it realisticly?

ok this part is for me..

ok for gala night right... we will play like how we want it to sound.

But i;m not gonna make this whole song just like as if we are a concert.

I'm gonna add in comedy and we are not doing this to win. we are doing this to attract ppl to Christ.

ok we all pretend we finish the song... then we crash crash there nd everything.

then suddenly the drums and electric most prob come in( depends on the song) and then band picks up really fast and then suddenly marcus and noah come out from nowhere and start singing. ok i'm serious abt this one LOL. of coz we will help them to sing in tune and all that. but let them sing their normal voice. well i'm not using them to win lah i'm using them in a different way. coz u play one song normallly. as good as it sounds.. it is what ppl expect and when ppl expect it will be less interesting already. and if they laugh maybe the pre-believers think our church very funny then come and after that the specific age encourage that person to go for cell :) who's with me??? oh i so bet that marcus and noah won't be liking this. but can u guys do this LIKE PLEASE? HEHEHE. good bye gift? HAHA. anyway further details we post soon enough. and anyway to choose the 3 songs. THE WHOLE GROUP MEET FOR ONE WEEK ONLY... LIKE JUST 1 WEEK? k lets own man! XD

hey all.
this is just a little something i compiled for SFH
when you guys see it, some may feel like crying like thinking on all those memories..
oh what am i talking about
all of you will laugh hor
lol. ok so anyway yup yup
ENJOY xD
Note: pause the music when playing the video
- i realise that this could cause embarrasment for some; but really WHO CARES? lol no la i'm not so mean, but almost everyone photo is there la xD so yea. enjoy-

Hey guys! I think since the first time i joined cc i saw u guys as a bunch of irritants. ( no offence. ) and i'm pretty sure most of u felt that way too. especially the girls side ? ( if what i heard was correct. ) anyway i'm really proud to be in SFH. :) sure we had a few problems. ok not a few but ya we pulled it off. and i think thats basically what its all about. Problems may come but i think its how we handle in :) even with friends ya? so dun be surprised if u find out i called james fatty behind his back or smth ( of coz he knows that HAHA lucky he in vietnam XD) and i made alot of mistakes throughout this whole period of time with u all. and i am also really quite speechless i must say to see how much u guys have grown. and the best part ppl like james and i did hardly nth. because at the end of the day it was you who made that decision to become better. :) so u should be proud of urself too. The really one big mistake that i have made for what? 90% of my life. is to be selfish.

Really, i cannot tell u how regretful i feel towards that and how guilty i feel abt that. I went through practically my whole life living for myself... and i lied countless times. i thought of myself countless times. and because of that i broke God's heart. sure alot of ppl didn't know but God did. Sometimes you really need to step out of ur comfort zone and just stop thinking of urself so much. its quite natural. But u can change ur mindset :) and what i wanna leave off with u all is live for smth. Live for God. and if u cannot live to serve the people around u so that God can do smth through you.

Anyway.. I'm leaving SFH. dun worry is not because i feel angry or useless or anything. but i think its time for me to concentrate on other things :) Recently God keep putting my cell into my heart. and i'm defintely closer to u all than them and i feel that my part in this group is done. :) Sure I will hang out with u all. but its not like now. i'm leaving cc too. probably end of next year. but even then sundays i can't really get time to spend with u all coz i am having my Os next year. i'm planning to join main service worship team and even if i dun make it i have other stuff to cope with too :) Starting from next year i won't be around so often with u all. i told u kinda early coz i scared u all miss me too much and reaction all too shock LOL no lah i'm kidding. but its roughly the idea -.- Gala night will kinda be the last main event with u all :) so i really hope we can pull it off real good. as SFH. :) and i thought long abt this. i really didn't wanna go and spend time with u as much as i can. but sometimes in God's will we need to make some sacrifices. :) and we will always be best friends and SFH. no matter what :) but i'm moving on lah thats all. i hope to more outings with u guys as much as i can :).

Once a SFH always a SFH ? -.- lol k

HAPPY WONDERFUL TWO DAY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOYYYYYYYY ! xD
just remembered man. hahaha
as in remembered that no one has posted up happy bday's
though i did in my own blog this one havent yet
so yea(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING
we all love you ♥

HEY ppl!!
JUST WANNA TELL U PPL TAT
im gonna celebrate my actual bdae with u ppl. cause
u all are my BESTIES!! yea

i hope and realli HOPE tat all of u can be free on tat day..
is a week day. yea is on the wed.
most prob jus going out to hang out yea. hahas
yepps

pls tell me if u are free.. not free can go..canot go.
and all hahas yepps

TC WORxX!! hahas

A beaten heart or beaten lungs.

Don't know what's worst.

LIfe sometimes have a way to sneak up on you.

Guess its just me.

Just feeling so bad now.

Just trying to smile.

Where have I gone wrong?

Guess I will never know...

LOve just takes up soo much space

Until once you lose it there's nothing left

Its like losing a battle,that meant so much to you.

Its like winning a million dollars and dying the next

I guess losing is part of life.

Guess I need some time alone...

Joshuah needs time alone

Joshuah needs time to think

Joshuah need time to heal

Ok,some of you boys know that I've been like addicted to css since last year and i can sence that God is trying get me out of it as the game had changed the relationship of me and my family and i became much more valger.-->ANYWAY a miracle came!!!Some one HACKED my CSS ACCOUNT!! Which means i cannot play CSS anymore... God has certainly made me see the the light and now in the last 2 months of this year i can finally be a jesus first christian!! GOD HAS REALLY CHANGED MY LIFE>and has given me a new beginning! So pray for me guys!!I'm hoping that i will be able to continue to have a jesus 1st lifestyle!!

oh ya and don't laugh about the hack.Its REAL! (*^marcus^*)