I've found a friend who died for me

Erm hi guys?!

erm about this sunday erm sorry? ><

i am not sure if you guys really talk behind my back or hate me or smt but i juz want to say that i love you guys and sorry for being such a ass on sunday....

sorry zephan for being bossy but i really did not mean to be bossy,i will try to change k?

I am not angry at vicky or sarah for leaving

or am i angry at song jie for making a band but i really wish that maybe next time you could tell me?

soo yea i really don't mean to be bossy or whatever,if i have offended anyone in anyway i am truly sorry and i pray that we would be a better group next time ><......

I love you guys and i hope that you guys would grow stronger ^^

bye!

ok since i'm bored
oh wait i'm not i can play cs!
LOL i'm such an addict
anyway bird ask me to post it
and i DID not edit anything
so like the 2nd half of the 1st sentence
she say one(which is not true LOL:D)
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ATTENTION SFH PEEPS, THE OH=SO-WONDERFUL-ELIZABETH SPEAKING. (HAHAHAS, joking, but still quite true!)
on watchnight, everbody must wear FORMALY.
Girls must wear dress and like, flats or whatever, NO SNEAKERS, ( for van)
Boys must wear like, long pants and tie. shirt can be long or short sleeve.. aiyah, just formal can already lahs

LOVES,ELIZABETH. (:
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tie? rofl!(sam:D)
edit!-i tink she's thinking
that we're dresing for sum
superdoopermegaultra grand dinner
ok nvm offf to cs!! : ppppp

hey guys :D
kinda have some news to break? bad news i tink...
er.. the gala night thing is cancelled
yes cancelled
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ok let me explain... erm mainly coz there are quite a few ppl backing out and there are some complications and upsets... so yea...
ok i am also one of the 'culprits' of the ppl backing out. coz i dun think i will be able to attend the practices and all. coz next year i have a lot of commitments in school and tournaments are all at the beggining of the year... so yea.. i dun wanna be like part of the thing but dun turn up or wtv
okk.. i hope this dosent upset too many :( i mean if you guys still wanna carry on with it i guess it still can be discussed again :) haha ok so lets remain happy :DD smile!!!
and merry belated christmas to all!!

cheers,
vicky

I never said we weren't united right?
in my post where got United this word?
anyway, what samuel said is true what.
why can't I be with songjie, is it a crime?
And i said sorry to reuben how many times already.
you go ask him lah. -.-
you want me say again, then i shall say it.
I'm sorry, ben.
But you also can't blame me what.
i mean like the gala thing, reuben has so far mostly been in charge of it.
So of course i'll go to him first right?
If you were me, you also would have done it.
( dont say you wont do it josh )
Anyway, for all your info,
Songjie and I haven't seen each other for a while,
cause we've been so busy.
Me with sku & Gb, him with his connection.
that we hardly get to see each other.
So theres been no physical contact if thats what your are worried about.
and frankly, i still think that Separating me & him for no good reason
( I dont count the physical thing as a Good reason. )
is ludicrous,
So Sorry to those who came up with this decision. ( james, josh & van )
Dont mean to disrespect your decisions, but theres always another side to it.
And We're still very united, just some minor things that always gets in our way.
Songjie & I have talked about it already,
and we've decided to go with the flow la, see how it goes.
but Please, people in my group, Hope your can bear with my black face.
I'll respect your decisions, but your also have to respect my choices.
So, yeah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS
today is the day that our saviour was born into this world
though he knoew that he would have to die
he would have to suffer
he still chose this path. for us
he is that good (:
so lets celebrate this day together, as one (:
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY (:
loves.

EDIT-
ya i noe becky said but just to say it again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS
THANK YOU FOR SACRIFICING YOURSELF
TO SAVE US I LOVE YOU JESUS!
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HEY!! hoohoo

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

haha woooo
its like we're counting down for christmas
anw merry christmas to all of you!
and this post prob look similar
to my post on my blog
coz like i typed them all out
on notepad then
copy and paste you noe haha
ok if i'm the first to like post this

woohoooo

ok tat sux hold on.

WOOOHOOOOO

yea better lols
anw er wat else?
oh yea i'm gonna do sum
MASS-TAGGING OF BOARDS
at the same time MUAHAHAHAZDSAFHSADAFIHASDFM
like i go to multiple blogs and tag
at the same time
AND I CAN DO IT
with firefox haha
DAM...i wonder why i can't do a joke-y post anymore
anw one thing abt gala nite
its like up to you guys
if u wanna see gala nite as an event
where we fought with each other
i mean like just accept la lols
i dun understand why joy can't be with song jie
i mean like is tat a crime?
will we like die and all coz of tat?lol
maybe...i oso wan be with song jie!
LOL jkjk...oh wait i'm with him liao i tink?
OK NVM
or rmb it as the awesomest event
where we rock our *** out :DDDD
OK NVM
anyway ya once again
with colours!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

i so rock for postting this :D
jkjk peacy!

Is there anyone that falls?

Is there anyone who sins?

Is there anyone who hears?

Is there anyone that fails?

coz when I look around I see everyone doing well

So I bottled everything up

If the invitation is open to

every heart that is broken

Then I will close the curtain .

Is there hands raised?

Are we happy people

or are we happy plastic people?

Am I the only feeling so small?

Am I the only one who fails?

Is there anyone who cry?

Is there who helps?

Am I the only one who sins.

Where did I go?

Where is my friends?

Where am I today?

Did I cry too much.

Did I sin too much.

Did I say to much.

Coz I don't see any invitations....

hey i think what joy said is not really true la... i think that we are united as a group and that ben is not trying anything funny he is just trying to help... and if joy and song jie want to be in the same team then fine but i think you guys know what God really wants but i can't do anything rite?

i am just a guy.... let me tell you ,breaking one law is breaking all the laws.... we may not kill or rape but even just lying may bring you to hell... and joy i don't really think that you are doing any good by saying that we are not united i mean we had the guys and gals war but we pulled through right? and if we have like soo much problems juz like that i think we should not have a band at all coz like its a waste of time...... Guys.. really were we like that?

just think ok and joy, i think you owe ben a "sorry" coz you really hurt him and juz because you want to be wif song jie which is wrong.....

erm tats all i guess everyone happy?

erm i really need to know if you can stay over this sunday for stay over and just coming

erm plss reply

the timing is after church

We're not a group anymore.
some people are trying to make decisions for us.
and that includes the gala night thing.
hearing reuben tell me the band thing
guess what?
your right, reuben
i overeacted.
your right what?
you need dont me, you dont need songjie.
At least if your make decisions like that
let me and songjie be there la.
go make this type of bloody stupid decisions.
anyway, i think the way your make the band thing
is ludicrous.
anyway, you dont need me anymore.
IF me and songjie aren't in the same band,
then i'm not participating.
sorry, its just ME complaining.

change of email.. hahas !!
van_56837@live.com.sg
thanks!

OK i didn't wanted to break my
no-posting spree
on sfh blog but
lets start with a

HELLO!!

is tat good?
kkk main point
i was thinking
well fine VAN was asking
hu free on wed
then maybe can go out and slack or sumtink?
lol anyways i wun be free on tat day
coz i'm working?(damn i AM hardworking)
lol so like ya haha
ok screwed up
just wondering hu is free on wed ok?
then i shall end with a

BYEBYE

EDIT
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since i'm posting and i'm bored
i'm just gonna say i'm off to play cs
haha the results of boredeom-ness-ses
wow tat'sa long word ok BYE
for real lol

Hope this poem can always be a comfort to those who feel down :)

Spend all your time waiting

For that second chance

For a break that would make it okay

There's always some reason to feel not good enough

And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction

Oh, beautiful release

Memories seep from my veins

Let me be empty

Oh, and weightless and maybe

I'll find some peace tonight

So tired of the straight line

and everywhere you turn

There's vultures and thieves at your back

The storm keeps on twisting

Keep on building the lies

that you make up for all that you lack

It don't make no difference

Escape one last time

It's easier to believe

In this sweet madness

Or this glorious sadness

That brings me to my knees

ok guys. we most probably splitting up into two different bands. i will be band leader for one and the other band leader will be song jie. so please listen to him and me k?

It's been really difficult handling the rehearsals...when u all dunno when to stop. i'm not saying it must be serious i mean its like a long rehearsal but know when to stop too ok?

yup... anyway im setting the next rehearsal on another day... because thursday might be a problem. maybe monday? not confirm yet.

But i need the whole band to be there. and i mean it. the last two rehearsals has so few ppl.

the next round if the whole band.. meaning EVERY musician not there. if even one is missing dun bother abt gala night k? sorry i'm being a bit niao abt it but u all should get the point.

the other band can sort ur own rehearsals out. we can help if u need. and the splitting of band ppl we mostly got it figured out we will tell u another time.

anyway change of song. its no longer stand by me. its sing( your love) by hillsong. u can ask me if u dun have. anyway thats the audition song for my band side lah and main for my band is accidentally in love. ur can do something different i suppose its up to you all.

Tomorrow meet 11.30 at church. gala night ends at 5.30.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REUBEN !
take care and maygod bless you (:
OHS and stay happy always
HAHAHAHHAS
ok bye.

ok on thursday the movie will be abt 11.30 or 12. most probablyy at vivo or plaza sing then we go kovan. rehearsal at abt 2.30 to 5.30 same as last time.

hey i think i posted this poem before but anyway juz felt to post it again anyway this is a little different haha

Take this eyes so blind and foolish

Go make it see.

Take this hands so useless and hard

Go make a fist.

Take this mouth so quick to criticize

Go give it a kiss.

Take this ears so corrupted and hard

Go make it listen.

Take this soul stranded in some flesh and bones

Go make it sing.

Why the dark before the dawn?

Still I'm waiting for the dawn

What no man can own.

What no person can control.

Take this heart.

Go make it yours.

hope this helps you ^^

hey guys want to post about erm how important they are no matter where they came from or wat happen in their life first of all like what reuben said we are lacking some unity and i think we should just get together more coz you know everyone is a friend and is needed like i think sam is a great friend and he knows where he stands and also like ben who knows whats the problem in our group and dares to stand up for what's right...sarah is never angry at anyone and never says anything bad and van is always fun and very ON to do things haha and erm james knows how organize stuff and outings for US and marcus is sooo funny and funny hahhahahahahahahahahahahahhaha ok and zeph is does not backstab peps and also is a loyal friend and becky is always cheerful and knows how to cheer people up and vicky is erm a good friend who cares and honest and song jie is kind and happy most of the times(i think) and joy is erm JOYFUL haha and its hard to make her angry i think and noah is like marcus but more fun haha and bird is a person who you can talk too and shes a good friend ^^ and erm lan and Hillary erm i don really know you soo yea haha sooo UNITY IS GOOOD ^^ hahahahahahhahahahahahah byess ok bye

Hey guys sry for like posting two times....

i really feel i need to say this and if you guys don like it i am sorry

i juz want to say what happen to us really?

i mean seriously?

maybe guys and girls should not hang out at such a young age but i believe that our group will win lives...

i don't know if its me or the guys feel it too but lately i feel very left out when i am wif the girls.. coz its like i juz stand there and like you gals talk about ur stuff and whatever. hey i know maybe you gals want to have ur time or gals talk but don't you think maybe you have a lot already?

maybe i am totally wrong maybe its not from God but i think thats happening and soon this group will be two groups or more

the second thing i want to say is that are we really a Jesus first christian?

like i know some of us are in sports team that take lots of time even sometimes church days

i want to say that i am in my school floor ball team and now i may even be kick out coz i am like the only Chinese in the team and i missed 4 days of floor ball training coz of camp and my mission trip but its worth it coz God is my leader and i trust HIm that nothing bad will happen

anyway i wrote this poem when i was in floor ball training not being able to play the game coz the cap call me off

I'm waiting on the floor

Waiting at the cross

I'm trying to love

Seeing my friends Go

I'm giving up dreams

I'm letting you in

Knowing you love me

I'm standing up,for what's right

I'm taking in pain

won't you come Lord

So i'm waiting at the cross

Waiting for you Lord

Help mw be a friend

Help me endure this

Help me be your soldier

Help me love the poor

Help me tell the world...

Maybe you think that all my words mean nothing but i want to tell you trust in God and he will help You know on holy sprit night i cried soo much because i just wanted to know that God love me.... And he did....

I think we should take what reuben said very seriously because if there is no unity then why have a group then the guys may as well quit and make our own group right? so yea try to keep everyone involve and talk to every one not only to your own friends.... yea soo plss try to change k?

SHALOM,me frens!!israel is super nice and i will get you guys presents!its nowonly6:30 here,6 hrs slower.kk miss you guys and bye bye...may the lord be with you:)

ok i'm going vietnam from tmw till 16th. next gala night rehearsal is 18th.. and maybe we can go celebrate my bd by watching twilight? lol

You know i realize recently this year that our unity doesn't seem as strong as before.

and i think the simple fact we are no longer united is because we try too hard.

Its because we dun have a goal.

Unity only comes when we have the same goal.

No offence but me and joshuah really feel more unity in the mission team than compared with you guys.

Take note that the mission team age gap diff was rather big. and that we only had 5 to 6 days to bond.

I myself was wondering how in the world did we get so close.

I realized its because we had the same goal of bringing hope to the people over there in kalimantan.

I'm not sure if many of you heard SP's message recently regarding the devil's works in LSBC.

The work to bring and add oil to the conflict that people have experienced in the last 10 years since we moved in.

When one falls.. all will fall. its because its a group.

For e.g if the elders fall what do u think will happen to the people? i think most of them will fall too because its a church.

k lah i give an example of conflict ok? i'm not gonna be embarrassed to say it because i think when the people dun stand up for what is right the others suffer. take note i come as a friend :)

i think a really good e.g would be the tension between me and sarah for e.g i'm pretty sure many of you noticed that our unity level has changed.

Like i said.. its because we are in a group. its easy for the devil to break unity. all he need to do is keep a conflict between just two ppl. and viola unity level drops.

Another example would be in church camp? where the girls and boys majorly like.. u know haha...

The truth is unity can be obtained in just days.. hours... minutes. what we need is the same goal that we work towards as SFH.

when we started out sfh i remember how all of us keep on saying " wah i feel God is going to use SFH so greatly. " and blah blah...

Yes its true i think alot of us feel it.. but what we need is unity in order for us to be used greatly not just as one but 17 people coming together becoming one.

Sometimes in order to have unity what we need to do is simply have a goal and forgive.

And to forgive would be the real test of unity and ur commitment. It takes humility defintely... and also the a bold step of coming out of ur comfort zone to tell that person that i forgive you. and of coz do it in actions as well.

Holy spirit night was funny because every other day when we say to guys i love you its known as gay.

But is it really? there's a time for hugging and words of love.

So when samuel... clement... josh all said to each other i love you its kinda weird but you know what? whats so wrong abt that? the world knows the girls do it. are they not the creation of God? and are we not the creation of God as well?

I hope when i leave SFH the unity among u all will grow tremendously beginning from now :)

Reuben and joshuah...

I dunno lah but nowadays ppl keep saying eh.. dun say that thats judging. but i dun thats completely right. i'm not saying u are all wrong lah.

but i think i'm also saying this to you to tell others because recently so many ppl say this is judging and that is judging tilll the point that almost everything is judging.

and certain times when u say that i feel its right. but there other times i feel in my spirit that its also a bit akward and wrong.

so i asked God what is it thats truly judging.

and the verse is " stay away from bad company because it corrupts good character"

i was like how in the world is that related.

then i realize.. in order to stay away from bad company... u need to know for urself and see for urself what is bad company.

and if u need to know that guys isn't that judging?

isn't that verse something wrong already?

well if its written there obviously it means thats not judging.

no offence lah... but how i see it now its like for eg something happens most ppl not just u guys will say... how u know that guy is bad company dun judge ppl lah. and how u know ur character is good who are u to say that.

but u see ah... i think judging is not just assuming abt someone. yes it is.

But its also a combination of both assuming and critisism.

like for e.g my friend owe me money... he tell me he got prob at home.

then i assume and start saying he is a liar before i even ask around or find out anything. now i think thats judging.

so be careful of how you guys think also k :)