SIA LA!!! my blog's onli at its 64th post! HOW CAN 1 GUY COMPETE AGAINST 13?!?! and im part of the 13 LOL xD anw...
just thought i shld publish the 5th editn of the sinner's journal... shown ppl liao... and since we're at war... here's the time to publish the SECRET WEAPON V LOL
enjoy... its kinda long...
and i completed it some 1 month back...
The Sinner's Journal V
It’s a war we are in,
A war that’s ending soon.
It’s a war we are winning,
For the enemy’s heading for their doom.
However the enemy knows how to counter,
How to counter this winning side of ours.
By bringing in disputes,
By bringing in quarrels.
Slowly isolating the warriors of God,
Bringing them to their knees.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
Past temptations were back,
Under constant attack by them.
Like flaming arrows,
Falling from the sky and striking us in the heart.
We needed God,
For even the strongest couldn’t survive.
The enemy was constantly attacking,
Not giving up.
Looking out for a weak spot,
To penetrate into the hearts of the weak.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
God had moved recently,
Touching more lives,
Saving more souls.
And of course,
The devil would not just stand around watching,
Of course,
He would do something,
Something to disrupt the move of God.
Of course,
He would mislead the younger generation.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
But God hears our call,
And protects those who call upon Him.
Covered by the blood of His,
We continue to fight.
Yet,
There are those lost sheep.
Wandering off into the dangerous pastures,
Away from the shepherd.
Some would come back,
And some lost forever.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
The days have become weary,
Tiring and lifeless.
The end seems so near,
The signs seem so clear.
Life has became a drag,
Suicide comes into mind.
Life becomes tiresome,
Eternal sleep comes into mind.
It was a tough struggle,
But it was going to be worth it.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
The sky no longer seemed blue,
The sun feels so cold.
It was not what it used to be,
A world filled with joy and laughter,
Became a world bitter and cold.
The birds no longer chirp,
And the children no longer play.
For the demons were attacking,
For all night,
And all day.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
People still worshipped Him,
But it was not like before.
The music somehow died along the way,
And now it becomes a bore.
But continually God refreshes,
And satisfies.
The hungry souls that long for Him,
And the tired souls that search for Him.
We were winning,
But we were complacent.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
Hearts were broken,
Lives were lost.
Pressure sets in,
And stress grows as well.
The demons were prevailing,
And it seemed we were losing.
But God intervened,
And gave a helping hand.
Setting us on our feet,
And back we were in this fight.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
The finish line could be seen,
So close yet so far.
With accusers attacking,
With insults, lies,
With false accusation.
It was discouraging.
It was painful.
It was hard to carry on.
But God was there,
Relieving our burdens.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
I had to find rest somehow,
For I grew weary.
Sleep was not helping,
And so I left it out.
I could not sleep,
Nor stay awake.
I could do neither,
And so death came into mind.
There was no difference,
For no one noticed my existence.
I was worried,
And I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
But God slapped me,
Across the face.
Waking me up,
Big time.
Where was I about to go?
Hell.
I nearly wasted His death,
On the cross.
He was there,
But I missed Him.
I was relieved,
Yet I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
So here I am,
Running this race.
A dangerous race,
With traps every corner.
A race of life,
That few people make out alive.
But I had God,
I was confident.
That I would live,
And not die.
I was relieved,
Yet I could not rest.
So where ever would I be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly being disturbed?
My stamina depleted,
And I was weak.
But God provided shelter,
He provided rest.
Finally,
I could sleep,
In peace,
Without disturbance.
He watched over me,
And protected me.
I was relieved,
And I could finally rest.
So where ever would I not be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly protected?
God provides,
He loves.
He refreshes my empty soul,
And sets me on my feet.
The road was long and dangerous,
Yet I wasn’t scared.
God was with me,
Who could be against me?
So I carried on my journey,
My journey to Home.
I was happy,
For God was with me.
So where ever would I not be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly protected?
The year had just started,
Yet troubles had appeared already.
But nothing could stop us,
From getting home.
Nothing could end us,
For He protected us.
Nothing could distract us,
For He was in our eyes.
Nothing was against us,
For he was with us.
I was elated,
For home drew near.
So where ever would I not be able to find rest then,
When my place of rest is constantly protected?
Sure the road may seem long,
But we were well-rested.
Sure the road may seem dangerous,
But we were protected.
Sure the road seemed intimidating,
But we were not afraid.
Sure the devil might be against us,
But God was with us.
Forever He shall be,
Forever He will be.
So I was safe,
For He carried me in His hands,
And kept me safe,
Out of harm’s way.
So I know I would be able to rest,
For my place of rest was protected.
I know I was safe,
And my place of rest was protected.
For I’m with Him,
What about you?