was having dinner an like this word suddenly pop into my head
"homesick"
and i was at first huh?
then i realised that you only feel homesick when you actually miss your home
and like when you feel homesick
you just feel homesick la
like normall you're in unfamiliar surroundings and stuff
or you really really miss someone
the thing about homesickness is also that you dunno when you're going to feel homesick
so i feel that like there's this sort of homesick-y feeling with God and stuff
like you miss your spritually home la
maybe you dun really feel it but i dunno la
the word just came
so anyway how do you deal with that homesickness
on normal day basis you go home right
so you must be actually willing to go home
normal day you feel homesick you call your parents to come and pick you
so your 'home' may come to you
but ultimately it's still your choice la
same way God will come to you
like your parents whenever you go away from home they will miss you
but He will still give you the choice
whether you want to come back to Him la
and most of the time we feel homesick when like we really really need your family
like you're in total despair and stuff la
like in the camp
when playing games you'll feel happy and not homesick right
but suddenly after the games you realise that you barely know anyone in the room
and you start to feel weak and vulnerable
it is THEN that you'll feel homesick
same thing with God i guess
so if you're feeling homesick and stuff and really wanna go back home but dunno how to
can always tell sarah,james, ruben or karyne la
not like they will go and tell the whole world about you
or just tell someone you can trust to listen and give advice and stuff
love you(: