(this post is meant for SOME of the guys, not the girls)
PLEASE LA.
stop it okay.
stop blaming me for everything.
STOP IT.
i hate this.
i hate my world.
I fucking screwed up my life okay?
its not my fault.
i'm never involved in anything.
theres so many things i'm good at but i never show it.
why?
i dont know.
maybe your dont choose to see it.
oh wait,
so now im putting the blame on your.
why am i doing that?
I DONT KNOW.
its my fault again.
it all boils down to me.
i dont like your insulting me.
i know, IM A FUCKING EXTRA IN THIS GROUP.
your would do better without me as a talk i/c.
yeah, why dont your?
anyway, even if i was a talk i/c,
NOBODY DOES LISTEN TO ME, RIGHT?
like, during church camp, we were supposed to bond.
( i dont really wanna bring the past back)
i was actually looking forward to getting to know your better.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
everytime i wanted to organize something,
they would always have that gender war.
i mean like, WHAT THE EFF?
cant your just fucking get along for one moment.
and just make my dream become a reality?
see, nobody listens to me.
i'm not blaming your, im just saying.
LOOK IF JOSH THINKS HE CAN DO A BETTER JOB
LET HIM BE THE TALK i/c.
after all i'm just a follower, right?
i was never a leader, and i'll never be.
AND BEN, PLEASE.
DONT JUMP TO ALL YOUR FUCKING CONCLUSIONS ABOUT ME
TRYING TO GAIN PITY FROM OTHERS.
if i think that is the lowest of the lowest class,
then why am i still doing it?
just shut up for once can?
your dont understand me.
your dont really know me.
i love the girls alot, their the best friends i could ever have.
but everything just starts with our own feelings.
SO, CAN YOUR STOP HURTING MY FEELINGS?
your dont need to show it,
your just do it in little things.
i'm starting to wish i never met you guys.
not once, not ever.
maybe i'm just a lost wandering soul?
i dont kknow.
i dont know why i'm here.
i dont even have a purpose in this group.
not even as a supporter.
no, i dont know why.
its always my fault isn't it?
your just dont see it from my point of view.
whatever i do is always wrong huh.
just go get angry at me again.