Hey guys! I think since the first time i joined cc i saw u guys as a bunch of irritants. ( no offence. ) and i'm pretty sure most of u felt that way too. especially the girls side ? ( if what i heard was correct. ) anyway i'm really proud to be in SFH. :) sure we had a few problems. ok not a few but ya we pulled it off. and i think thats basically what its all about. Problems may come but i think its how we handle in :) even with friends ya? so dun be surprised if u find out i called james fatty behind his back or smth ( of coz he knows that HAHA lucky he in vietnam XD) and i made alot of mistakes throughout this whole period of time with u all. and i am also really quite speechless i must say to see how much u guys have grown. and the best part ppl like james and i did hardly nth. because at the end of the day it was you who made that decision to become better. :) so u should be proud of urself too. The really one big mistake that i have made for what? 90% of my life. is to be selfish.
Really, i cannot tell u how regretful i feel towards that and how guilty i feel abt that. I went through practically my whole life living for myself... and i lied countless times. i thought of myself countless times. and because of that i broke God's heart. sure alot of ppl didn't know but God did. Sometimes you really need to step out of ur comfort zone and just stop thinking of urself so much. its quite natural. But u can change ur mindset :) and what i wanna leave off with u all is live for smth. Live for God. and if u cannot live to serve the people around u so that God can do smth through you.
Anyway.. I'm leaving SFH. dun worry is not because i feel angry or useless or anything. but i think its time for me to concentrate on other things :) Recently God keep putting my cell into my heart. and i'm defintely closer to u all than them and i feel that my part in this group is done. :) Sure I will hang out with u all. but its not like now. i'm leaving cc too. probably end of next year. but even then sundays i can't really get time to spend with u all coz i am having my Os next year. i'm planning to join main service worship team and even if i dun make it i have other stuff to cope with too :) Starting from next year i won't be around so often with u all. i told u kinda early coz i scared u all miss me too much and reaction all too shock LOL no lah i'm kidding. but its roughly the idea -.- Gala night will kinda be the last main event with u all :) so i really hope we can pull it off real good. as SFH. :) and i thought long abt this. i really didn't wanna go and spend time with u as much as i can. but sometimes in God's will we need to make some sacrifices. :) and we will always be best friends and SFH. no matter what :) but i'm moving on lah thats all. i hope to more outings with u guys as much as i can :).
Once a SFH always a SFH ? -.- lol k
