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How long more must it last?
How long more must i wait?
What more must i do so that it can be so??
I've given every bit of me to tell you all i am sorry.
I am sorry i acted big shot.
I am sorry i made suans that could have hurt you all.
I am sorry for the ass and immature piece of shit i was.
No longer i am like that,
But i've done nothing that is honourable or things that any of you should be proud of..
James, you of all people should understand what happened and why.
Zephan, i'm really sorry for last year's drama everything you and i said to each other.
Joshuah lim... thanks for being the friend who was always there to support me.
I remember how you wanted to get punched also because i was your friend.
I really thank you.
But sometimes... i need to settle things on my own.
My heart can never be pure or perfect but i am doing my best.
Becky, you cute little hamster... thanks.
Karyne, your never ending concern has touched my heart in every way.
Noah, thank you for being a welcoming host and your spirit of cheerfulness
Samuel, same as noah.
Hillary, i may not know you well but i think one way or another i apologize to all of you as SFH.
Ian, same as hillary. I'm sorry that you feel left out in the group and so. I truly am. because SFH is not a group for only 17 people. but the world can join us. and its true.
Songjie, thank you for teaching me things through ur experiences. i'm sure you will continue to impact ppl.
Van, you may not be in singapore but i miss you and we all do. Thanks for your never ending concern and little girl - likeness.
Bird, thanks for being so sweet.
Joy, you and i may have had problems, but we both know our friendship will not be destroyed just like tat. and thanks for being sweet alot of times too.
Marcus, same as noah.
Vicky, sports girl, i want to play with you someday. anyway besides that point just wanted to say thanks for being there for me too.
Sarah...sorry. all of you i want to say i am sorry. Sarah, as much as you don't want me to talk to you or say this... i really really regret alot alot of things i did to you. I am so super sorry. I spent nights crying, reading all the cards you ever gave me. i will go to school insetad of taking out a pen. i stare at the highlighter u gave me for christmas a few years back. But i know the hurts and things i have done to you cannot be compared to me... how many times i felt lousy and told you that you shouldn't like me and the trust i broke. I've tried my best to make it up.. and will continue to.. and i really do hope you will forgive me. but if you cant then i dun blame you.
Darryl low, you may not be in my cell but you are in my zone. and i was really angry at you too. I am so sorry...:( you won't even be reading this.. but no matter what i will not forget that we were freidns before. and i do hope we can be again. What happened today... if you guys dunno abt it. pls dun ask around. and those who know pls dun tell any one or even talk abt it to those who know.
All of you, i really love each one of you all very much. so ya... sorry.